Anxiety Attack - The big attack. I can recall a long time ago when I was in my early twenties how happy I was to find the job of my dreams an apprenticeship in cabinet making. I had a big smile I was happy and I was excited. Who wouldn’t be who was about to embark on a journey of wood working since I had an interest in the craft and one I was good at from an early age (I had won the National Wood Working competition at our school for my level).

My OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder) during this time was at it’s infancy stage but was slowly taking over my life during this time. I had no idea I had OCD all I knew was that each day I would feel uncomfortable pain in my tummy which I have discovered to be anxiety attacks today.

I can recall life being all over the place for me with very little stability and I was going from one thing to another. I remember being in my room and thinking about this apprenticeship. With the OCD I started to obsess about this apprenticeship and it continued hour by hour day by day. This would lead to an anxiety attack and for about 2 months this saga went on for. I wanted to do this apprenticeship but mentally I did not want to because I wanted to go away from the anxiety attacks so off I continued fighting myself and each time I had experienced an anxiety attack I knew the mind was winning the battle.

After about 2 months once I wore my system out with enough thoughts and OCD behavior to last someone a lifetime the OCD around this apprenticeship went away and I started onto something else. It would of been very easy for me to give up and give the apprenticeship away but sometimes in life you need to fight and be tenacious until what you’re fighting gives up. Source - Anxiety Attack - The big attack.

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